Lately I have come to the conclusion that a normal life terrifies me. There is nothing appealing to me about a college degree. There is nothing appealing in a 40 hour work week. There is nothing appealing about a wife and kids. Where's the excitement? The spontaneity? I wish I could fit everything in my life into one single bag and start walking just to see where I end up. Imagine it: a different city every night. No stress, no attachment, no obligations. Sharks keep moving, never sleeping, always swimming.
I want more. I want more than I have seen, I want more than what most see. I never want to stop learning/observing/absorbing. I want freedom from all the things that hold me back and tie me down. I want to live. I want to live a real and full life. Preferably short. But death is the least of my concerns.
Somedays I feel like a modern day reincarnation of Atlas. Other days I feel like I have nothing to worry about. The second is probably more accurate, but I can't convince myself of it.
What I've been up to/in to lately: Fingers Crossed - started playing/writing with this band recently. check out the new tune.
Stand Your Ground - Helped these dudes write a song. They also just posted two new ones on their 'space. Check it if you're into Misery Signals/This is Hell/Shai Hulud.
Scott Adams - God's Debris. Picked this up a minute ago. So far, so good. Interesting, thought producing, mind boggling read.
Whats keeping me going: Why? - Alopecia, Nachtmystium - Assassins Black Meddle Pt. 1, Madball - Hold it Down, Clutch - self-titled
